D is for Diet

I’ve had this post drafted for a while now so thought I better get it finished and get it posted. And also hope it continues to give me the nudge I need. I’m getting there, just slowly! As I mentioned in another post I have a series of 10 Fertility Boosting Smoothies that once I get the final 2 I will post as well.

And who knows maybe the pineapple I ate after ovulation last month did help my brief BFP?! It was something that I did differently after my friend has said she did when she conceived her baby girl. I also ate a lot of Avocado which I also did for Octobers BFP. I generally get a BFP when on a proper health kick though. Just need to make them beans stick now!

Some of this may be utter mumbo jumbo but at the end of the day they say you are what you eat, and I guess thats even truer when trying to grow another human. I know for sure when I get my magic BFP again I will be super healthy as I was the last short spell.

So the forums are full of pineapple being good for implantation and that you should start eating it from ovulation onwards, they also advise not to eat too much of it before ovulation as it makes the CM too acidic which is not a good environment for sperm.

Kiwi Fruit – Good for implantation apparently! http://www.thatslife.com.au/Article/Real-Life/Real-Life-Stories/Kiwi-fruit-made-me-pregnant

Broccoli, spinach and other leafy greens – high natural source of Folic Acid, v.important when TTC and in early pregnancy.

Plain nuts and seeds such as almonds, walnuts, brazil nuts and pumpkin seeds. Full of vitamins required for healthy eggs and sperm. Brazil Nuts in particular are frequently talked about on the forums and are chock full of Selenium so probably why so recommended.

Hazelnuts – One of the major health benefits of hazelnuts is that it is rich in folic acid. Folic acid is useful for growing babies and for adults. It plays a vital role in the production of red blood cells which are essential for oxygen transport across the human body. The health benefits of hazelnuts are further enhanced by the presence of the B group of vitamins. Vitamins B1, B2 and B12 are all present in hazelnuts. I wonder if Nutella counts?? On that note it is actually possible to make your own Nutella (you could technically omit the sugar or swap it for coconut sugar for a heather alternative, or honey as below:

http://www.bonappetit.com/recipe/better-than-nutella-chocolate-hazelnut-spread

Honey – Theres a few different articles floating around about honey and in particular Manuka honey. For me though its still a sugar and I try to limit its use.

http://babyworld.co.uk/2011/10/honey-may-aid-conception/

Alkaline Foods for Conception

I’ve been using the Honestly Healthy Cookbook (http://honestlyhealthyfood.com) for some time now and the recipes are amazing, I’m just waiting on my copy of the new one. The tomato soup and butternut squash soup from the original are honestly amazing, you would never guess they don’t contain cream.

Heres some other info I found: Attaining a healthy PH balance is essential for reproductive health. If cervical mucous becomes too acidic, it can become hostile to sperm and prevent implantation (sperm favor an alkaline existence). For an ideal PH balance, 70-80% of your diet should be from alkaline foods, while 20-30% can come from acidic foods. Saliva is alkaline, so remember to chew your foods well to create an internal environment conducive to fertility.

Highest Alkaline Forming Foods:
String beans, banana, dandelion greens, dates, figs, prunes, raisins and Swiss Chard.
High Alkaline Forming Foods:
Almonds, asparagus, avocado, fresh beans, beets, black-berries, carrot, cranberries, chives, endive, sour grapes, kale, dried peach, persimmon, plum, pomegranate, raspberries, rooibos tea and spinach.
Alkaline Forming Foods:
Agar, alfalfa, apple, fresh apricot, globe artichokes, bamboo shoots, snap beans, sprouted beans, most berries, broccoli, Brussel sprouts, cabbage, cantaloupe, cauliflower, celery, cherries, chestnuts, chicory, coconut milk, collards, corn (when fresh), cucumbers, daikon, eggplant, escarole, garlic, ginger root, gooseberry, grapefruit, guava, horseradish (fresh and raw), kelp, kohlrabi, leek, lemon, lettuce, line, loganberry, mango, melons, raw, milk, m millet, acidophilus yogurt and whey.
Neutral Oils:
Almond, avocado, coconut, cottonseed, linseed (flaxseed), olive, safflower, sesame, sunflower, and walnut.
Highest Acid Forming Foods:
Alcohol, artichoke root, barley, bread, buckwheat, caffeine, coffee, corn (when processed and not fresh), custards, drugs, most flours, ginger preserves, honey, lentils, pate, oatmeal, peanuts rice, rye grain, soy bred, soy noodles, sorghum, spaghetti, and other pastas, sugar cane, raw beets tobacco, walnut, wheat.
Acid Forming Foods:
Dried beans, cashews, coconut, cranberry juice and concentrate, egg yolk, filberts, fruit jellies, (canned jams, sulfured, sugared, dried), grapes, pasteurized milk products, dry peas, pecans, Damson plums, tofu, fries and water chestnuts.
Acid Forming Fats:
Butter, cream, margarine and lard.

From http://www.fertilefoods.com/healthy-pregnancy/fertility/alkaline-foods-for-conception/

Theres tons of links on the web regarding fertility diets and a recent trend has now seen people following a Paleo approach, which I use a lot of recipes from. I also just downloaded the 21 Day Sugar Detox (http://honestlyhealthyfood.com)books on the recommendation of my Acu Dr to go sugar free. And these are also Gluten Free which is also inline with Paleo, and my other findings on links between gluten and miscarriages. Theres also more specifically an Auto-Immune Paleo diet which aligns itself to a fertility style diet.

http://natural-fertility-info.com/fertility-diet

So as you can see, I love my food, I love researching food and I’m a tad obsessed with it! Heres some pics of my more healthier endeavours!

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Its been a while…

So I’ve been a bit MIA lately. To be honest I got a bit sick of constantly writing and reading about TTC troubles. I thought this blog would get me over my constant thinking about it but if anything it started to fuel it. 

So I took a little break. I’m still doing my tests, latest news is that the glucose test showed Impaired Glucose Tolerance, loosely termed as pre-diabetes. So thats given me a massive kick diet wise again and I downloaded the two 21 Day Sugar Detox books just before that test actually as knew I needed to do something. My dad had diabetes so I knew I was at higher risk. I don’t plan to cut fruit out like the book suggests, now were in full sweaty summer here I love a bowl of fruit salad and yoghurt. Which now has to be the coconut or soy variety due to the next bit. The nutritionist I met was pretty rubbish and didn’t tell me anything I already know, she recommended wholegrain bread but my own research (a dailymail article that week!) had said it can be worse than some sugar for spikes! She mostly gave me recommended guidelines for amounts of each group needed.  

As I mentioned previously I wanted to get tested for Celiac, recurrent miscarriage can be a symptom of this, I was diagnosed with IBS about ten years and I was feeling really bloated and sick quite a lot. 

So I had the blood, the stool (yuck – TMI!) and gastroscopy, so camera down the throat. Now I saw a german Dr here and don’t ask me why I thought this but I totally thought he said Endoscopy and was in a bit of a panic the day of it, luckily the nurse quickly re-assured me the camera was going down my throat not via another route!! 

This also showed something to my surprise, luckily not celiac, but inflammation of the stomach and liver and Gastitis caused by a bacterial infection called HP, helicobacter pylori. Sounds grim but is easily fixed and not contagious. It can cause ulcers and worst case scenario, stomach cancer, but he said the level isn’t bad enough for that. So now I’m on a 4 week course of antibiotics with strictly no alcohol (esp given that could be a possible cause of this), no milk, restricted sugar and though he didn’t say cut out bread I feel it aggregates me so have tried to avoid that too. I’m also on a week of various other prebiotics, anti inflamatories, and god knows what. They really like pumping the money out of the insurance companies here. I was surpassed how quick he said to have the gastroscopy but I’m glad he did now as this could’ve gone on forever. Even fasting for 12 hours prior to both appointments I was incredibly bloated. I also had an ultrasound but for my digestive organs. I have a small polyp that needs to be monitored in a year and apparently a hell of a lot of gas and liquid in my digestive tract. Hence all the bloating. 

To be honest its not the no drinking thats bothering me, I ended up trying a small shandy at a baby shower (due to pressure to prove I’m not bloody pregnant!) and jeez did I pay for that later. But what I’m really missing is milk! I drink it nearly every day as a glass plus all what I have in tea (decaf of course). Being a brit I love a good brew! I’m not quite at my in-laws levels of having the kettle on before they’ve even finished the last one, but I do enjoy 2-3 a day. 

I have ntoiced a difference tho after just one week. I’ve finally shed some weight, I got myself back in the gym last week as this helps with the IGT to process glucose. I feel miles more deflated. And I’m hoping it’ll get me into long term habits. I needed a lifestyle change and this has given me the nudge I needed, seeing it in black and white opened my eyes. I do not want diabetes like my dad. And this risk is obviously even higher in pregnancy to develop gestational diabetes so I’m working hard to combat it now.

The actual TTC side of things has taken a bit of a backseat. Me and hubs have been ridiculously tired recently so hump week was a bit of non-starter. I’ve got the NK Cells test booked in on the 15th but now I need to find out if these antibiotics will affect the results. 

Me and hubs have also agreed its becoming a problem between us, neither of us like doing it on demand, I got a bit obsessive, and so I’ve taken a step back. I can’t tell you what cycle day I’m on without checking FF. And to be honest concentrating on my health has taken priority. So whilst no booze, milk, wheat or sugar is incredibly hard, I’m hoping to be a skinny biatch by the end of this 4 weeks!! and thats something I’ve been trying to get for a lot longer than a baby! Well get back to I should say!! I was there just 3 years ago. I need to stop blaming Dubai & take responsibility. 

I might not post again for a while. I need a TTC thought break! 

Hopefully by the next time I log on you’ll all have your rainbow babies!!

The universe is conspiring against me at the moment

No period. Typical. After being regular for so long. FFS. I’m actually feeling loads going on and my left ovary feels more like ovulation sensation. Not sure my back ache is all the cleaning I’ve done these last few days or imminent period. I feel like I’m going to snap. Ugh.

Puppy update:

Warning, possible TMI…!!!

And now after keeping me up all night again & a vets appt looming because I found blood & mucous in his mess yesterday, the hound is now refusing to produce a sample for me to take. I’ve fed him I’ve give him treats. & nothing. This is gonna be the day when he lays one out in public, u just know it!!!

Normal

Why I expected anything else I don’t know. I mean I’m fit and healthy, why would anything show up? It hasn’t yet!

So now I’m sat waiting for the crimson tide so I can start on the next 2 tests. Then the count down until I meet Dr Magic again in 5 weeks just for her to order some more tests.
Let’s hope she’s able to do the NK Cells test. As much as I love a trip back to the UK I really can’t be doing with it right now leaving hubby with the puppy when he’s snowed under with work. Cost isn’t even the issue. I just really don’t want to travel at the moment.

You’d think I’d be happy my results are normal. But right now it’s just making me frustrated.

I think I’m going to kill the next person that says ‘at least you can GET pregnant. That’s good!’ No it’s not, I’d rather not have the heartache of loss thanks.

Think I’m well grouchy too as pups kept me up all last night crying and being a pain so I slept on the sofa to calm him. Now he’s fast asleep and I’m shattered!

I gave in

BFP. Ugh. Actually feel ok about it as need to get to the root of the problem first really.

Then I called Dr Magic and the results are in. Only I have to wait until she calls me once she’s read them. Gaaaah!!! More waiting! FFS.

I lied, my impatience is back with a vengeance!

To test or not to test

So you think I’d be over doing anymore tests, however since saying I wasn’t bothered yesterday, it’s now on my mind!!

I can’t win! 2 days til FF says I’m due.

To test or not to test?!?!

CD28/ 11DPO

Aren’t I doing well not testing?! According to FF I should be 30 day cycle this month so I think I’m doing well. I did have a bout of feeling really sick last night and this morning but I think that was too much sun on our wknd break. Despite living in year round sun I really don’t sit it enough, I’m too fidgety and get bored. And I’m guilty of not keeping my daily hour up for vit D purposes since the Dr tested for it last week and I’m awaiting the results.

Not sure when I’ll get test results this week, I’m awaiting a call. Usually I’d be going nuts but a relaxed attitude has washed over me out of nowhere!! It prob won’t last.

So whilst I’m waiting for my period and test results (& getting my period will mean booking in for more tests, she wants an ultrasound on day 2/3 to check lining then an insulin test I may as well do on the same day but have to be there for a good few hours so have loaded my kindle) I’ve been so pre-occupied with puppy that the days are going fast.

Don’t get me wrong I’m still dying to get this show on the road but I seemed to have curbed the obsessiveness for now. I’m going to focus on fitness again this week, I nowhere near reached my goal for feeling slim on the beach this weekend so it’s given me renewed enthusiasm for it.

That is after I’ve eaten the birthday cake the restaurant gave me last night that I couldn’t fit in after 6 courses!! Oink oink I know!

But I’ve got a week left of the meal delivery system my husband has palmed off on me cos he’s rubbish at diets!! So I’ll try use that to get some good habits.

It’s also my late fathers birthday on the 19th. Even after 26years I find it so hard but it think that it also reminds me that life can be so short (he was 36 at passing). I was so lucky to have a dad that adored me even it was for 6 short years and for that I’m always grateful.

Dr Magic

Well I don’t really know what I expected, well yes I do, answers, but I got what I should’ve expected, tests.

Tests, Tests and some more tests when I get my period, then maybe some more when I see her again in six weeks and she’s checked on NK Cells as apparently her lab rejected the last ones. Great. Whole reason I went to her and not UK was to mainly pursue these tests. 

Though given todays whopping bill I’m actually grateful it’ll be spread out. Pray the insurance pays these or we may as well just straight away hit the IVF route, ironic given this mornings post!! 

Its amazing what a difference a week makes, last week I was so obsessed with getting to the bottom of this (I am still to an extent) but I’ve def relaxed. My little bundle of furry love is keeping me really distracted and I just feel like what will be will be today. Maybe its old age kicking in early! 

 

 

The money side of “Infertility’

So I was reading this post http://ttcwriter.wordpress.com/2014/05/12/am-i-the-only-one/ this morning and it got me thinking about my own feelings towards IUI/IVF etc.

And the truth is I really don’t want to go down that road. I know it has worked for millions and given them babies where they have struggled. But for me I just pray it doesn’t become something I need. I can get pregnant, so I don’t class myself as ‘Infertile’. I just can’t get the beans to stick.

Reading the RMC forums you realise there are so many struggling, but you also realise that knowledge of Drs in the field varies greatly. Don’t get me wrong, not everyone is going to be an expert, but I feel its a Drs duty to continually updating their knowledge. Sometimes I feel we know more than them through our own research! When I spoke to my gynae, who I really do like, about NK Cells she seemed a bit clueless. Just prescribing me Clomid when I was already ovulating. The time she told me my follicles weren’t mature enough for CD11 so prescribed me the Clomid for next cycle, I actually got a BFP that month. So its clearly not the solution!

It also Irks me that I just think the whole industry cash’s in on peoples disability. Theres far too much money generated from fertility and not nearly enough money put into research discovering the causes of ‘infertility’. So I often I read of otherwise healthy people, like myself, being lead down the road of medicated cycles, artificial insemination and the like and it just doesn’t sit well with me. Why are the Drs not putting their energies into getting to the cause of the problem not just a generic set of solutions?

Don’t get me wrong, there are those with genuine reasons and causes of infertility. I’m talking about the 20% of us that are ‘unexplained’. I do believe that everything happens for a reason, not just in life but also scientifically.

I often think its glad I have this viewpoint and am not desperate to go down the ‘will do anything for a baby’ route just yet. My hubby is even more on the side of, well there must be a reason, and were both healthy individuals so theres no reason it won’t happen. Yes we might need a little bit of assistance if it does turn out I have NK Cells, Hidden infection, or some other random condition as one of the reasons its not surviving past 5 weeks, but I just feel in my bones its meant to happen naturally for us.

Thats not to say I’m purely scientific about it either, I think a little bit is luck, maybe just bad eggs, or sometimes I think its Karma for something I did in the past. But logically deep down I do believe theres a reason, I just haven’t found it yet.

So today is the day with Dr Magic. I honestly can’t tell you how long I’ve been waiting for this, well 3 weeks but feels a lifetime! I know I’m pinning far too much on her having all the answers but I can’t help it. I’m fully prepared with my timeline, my test results, my list of questions. I’m worried as I’m CD7 that she’ll make me wait for some tests but as long as its next week I don’t mind. I just want a plan in place. I want to feel like things are progressing and for her to tell me she believes theres a curable reason too.

Then I’m off to get the homocysteine blood drawn the stupid lab missed in November last year.

I’ve not made my self-given deadline of being pregnant by my birthday (tomorrow) but at least if I have a plan in place I can deal with that. I’m at least a mummy to my gorgeous nutty puppy boy. And thats good enough for me for today.

 

 

 

Counting down

Until my appointment with Dr Magic tomorrow!

Now something that’s just majorly pisses me off, I’m going through all my medical reports after spending forever collecting them & writing a timeline so the dr can quick glance at what I’ve done so far.

Now whilst reading I find the Homocysteine test was requested to be done again (for free) & it was never flagged to me! I know it’s probably negative like everything else but what if it’s not?? I’ll now no doubt google what it could mean but I know I’ve read it being a factor on my many forums about rmc.

So now I’m trotting off to the lab to get it re-done. Why not, it’s been at least a month since I last had blood drawn…

The distraction is working

All my googling this weekend has totally been ‘training a French bull dog’ ‘toilet training using pads’ ‘how to stop biting’ you get the picture.

I’ve totally relaxed my TTC, yes I’m remotely what day I’m on in my 2WW tho I do have to consult fertility friend as it’s not actually etched in my mind for once. Tho I’m counting down to Tuesday for my appointment with Dr Magic. I decided to reschedule my celiac & vit D test until after I’d consulted with her.

Largely cos I want to give this pup some serious training this week and I’ve got quite a few clients booked in so minimising me time out of the house whilst we potty train. He’s already off to his uncles this wknd as were away for my birthday, I’m gonna miss him like crazy but it was already booked & our friend is dying to get one so think he’ll be well looked after.

Feel like this week could be the start of so many new beginnings. You never know we could’ve even hit the jackpot without really trying. That would be the best! But I’m having a lot of discharge and I don’t know if that’s a good or bad thing, trying not to think about it.

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This is our wonderful little guy Vinnie. Named after a football player (don’t ask!). He’s currently sat dreaming away like crazy next to me but I have to wake him soon for his first trip to the vets. Should be fun!